Rehab and it's pro's

Rehab-and amazing adventure for a person looking for a different life. I have done this, prolly one of the most difficult choices I have ever made. I know if you are thinking of going then you should go. I went for 30 days and I have not had a drink since Dec 5, 2007. Shit that is a long time and I still can't believe that I haven't. I found out in rehab that the people that love you the most have the most influence on whether you feel good or bad about yourself or bad about the things that you are doing. They do not mean to make you feel this way they are just sick and sick of worrying about someone they care most about. I am not a professional of any sort but I have experience in this kind of behavior. I remember feeling as if I wanted nothing to do with my family and that they were all out to get me. They would freak out and yell at me when I would get into trouble with the law, or say things that felt as if they were putting me down very harshly. This does not help the situation for the problematic person. Yet this is an easy mistake for the normal person that just wants the best for the person they love. I know that when I felt as if everyone was mad at me I would def go out and try to escape that feeling, and the way I escape is not a very pretty site. The people that love you the most can also hurt you the most. I have hurt my family many times. My parents and I had to learn how to deal with each other. I had to learn exactly where they were coming from and they had to learn exactly what kind of issue I have. I never drank to get at my parents. I had no idea why I drank all I knew is I drank when happy when sad and even when i was neutral. I did not need a reason to drink nor did i know why or how every time I drank i got drunk. "I just did" Today my family knows what was wrong, this does not mean they would understand if I drank again though, and I understand why. Lessons learned in my life are lessons i will use to walk through life for the rest of my life.